First Love "Edited"

So I'm no poet, but I wrote a poem to develop my character. I'm unsure if the point is understandable. I mean I know what its supposed to mean, but do you? That's what I'd like to know. Can you understand (briefly) what I'm implying. Its not supposed to show you nothing but one certain aspect of the character. SO let me know!

First Love

My apocalypse is coming,

Yet I can't start running,

There's no need to surmise,

I'm waiting to witness with my own eyes.

I'm watching it brew,

Just as you drew,

With your beautiful sadistic mind,

Should I leave these feelings undefined?

I'm caught in a whirlwind of emotion,

Because you speak to me with an undeniable devotion,

You're an image of flawlessness that I can't resist,

I'm so bemused, how could you even exist?

I'm lured by your voice,

I'm sure I've no other choice,

So I'll surrender to you my every breath,

I'm yours until my predestined mortal death.